so tomarrow is my birthday! i know you guys dont think that i am too excited for it but i really am! i just have alot of memories about my birthday and it kinda hurts to think about it so if you see me kinda sad or in thought.. i am just remembering the past. but any who so casey calls me a machine. hahaha i know i am wierd but working out with casey was fun. and yes i was laughing and smiling at her when she was about to die. it burned sooo good!!! like it burned my legs but it felt sooo good at the same time! hahaha casey i love you sooo much. so i did 25 push ups and casey was like ohhh my god!!! i cant even do one. casey the trick is dont tuck your butt in you gotta leave your whole body straight. hehe i love my caseypoo. but besides the working out thing... kirby said hes got something really cool planned for my birthday and i am super excited. hehhe yeah ill be 18 so i can get my license! im signing up tomarrow to take my road test prooly for saturday. im excited! its about friggin time!
me and my sister were soo cool today. we were just hanging out and freakin out and singin and dancin while driving around. it was soo fun. i really connected with her which is super sweet!
over all today was a very good day!

ahhh i finally got a live journal. but anywho!
so me and casey hung out today, that was fun we were running and when we were runing i saw this yellow car so i went to hit her and when i did i almost fell flat on my face it was sooo funny. but i guess youd have to be there. but ahh it was fun i feel so refreshed now. we were running then we lifted weights and doing lunges and sqwats and then push ups and crunches. it felt really good. ah but yeah.
casey i want you to know that you mean soo much to me. i read some of those entries about me and i want you to kmow that you dont need to think about what it would be like if i wasnt in your life because its not happening. we will be friends forever, that i promise! i love you sooo much and you mean the world to me. and its my job as a friend to cheer you up when your sad and to comfort you when you need it. iv never had a friendship that has been this strong before and i know that things between us will never get weak. i wont let it. even when we go off to college i will always come and visit you cuz ill miss you too much! ahh i love you casey your my best friend. oh and by the way last week end felt really wierd cuz we didnt hang out one day. it made me sad. but i love you!

kirby~ im really proud of you. i dont know when you will see this but i think you desserve the best girlfriend and i am soo happy that you found britney cuz shes amazing and you guys are soo cute. but i do have to say i miss you and we need to hang out asap. and im really glad that we have gotten closer this year cuz we used to fight non stop and now we get along so well and i dont ever want that to change. i love you kirby your like my big brother that protects me from danger. i love it!!

to quickly change topics, i have been feeling very confused and hurt about my past but i feel like everything is going to get sorted out. i know that there will be times that will be tough on me but those are the times that i need to trust god the most. sometimes i dont believe god can help me but i convince myself to believe because i know that i really do need god to help me through every problem that i go throug whether it is relationships or if its my walk with god. hes always there to pick me up and i want people to see this and know that if i can deal with my difficult situations that you guys can to. dont give up on god. just keep strong.

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